well, today i start diversion. this is gonna suck. im not allowed to talk to two of my bestest (even, if one doesnt consider me a 'best friend' anymore) friends for 3 months, and its going to be torture. i tell everything to them, and..... now what. i cant have any contact and, its actually depressing. theres so many restrictions i might actually go insane. or more so, i suppose. plus, with all that... house arrest. i HATE it. im not going to be able to see anybody for like, 3 weeks...and if i dont screw that up, then ill get curfew. thats a bit better, but still. i wont be able to see anybody, even Jimmy. and thats going to kill me. i cant wait until July 19.... itll finally be over. at 4, ill be counting down til that hour for sure. other than that, this weekend was so great, bowler of the year.... jimmy came down and even though i only saw him for like, 2 hours...it was still great. n emily and i hung out friday and saturday, that was super fun. Sunday my mom and i went shopping, and we had fun, but now shes going to be mad, and i hate seeing her mad. and, its all my fault too. as usual.... christ, i cant do anything right... such a screw up.